Anxiety, Restlessness, Stress, Worry….what do they bring us? More of the same? Yet, we fight to overcome these things daily. We take medication, get massages, acupuncture, go to yoga class. We drink, smoke, and the list goes on and on. In the end, have we changed the outcome or situation? Did the anxiety solve our problem? Did all those sleepless nights tossing and turning result in our healing? My guess is No.
As someone who fights all of those emotions daily, I ask myself those questions. I know the answer, we all do. Yet I still let those feelings creep in and torment me. I still worry about my future. I still feel anxious every time Dr. Kirsch walks into the room for my weekly update on the effectiveness of my radiation.
I read a book years ago by Joyce Meyer called “Battlefield of the Mind”. I am currently doing the daily devotional of that book. Now for us 80s ladies, do not confuse this title with Pat Benatar’s “Love is a Battlefield”. Actually, our mind is the battlefield and Love is the armor. God’s love, his peace, his presence drives out the battle raging within us fighting to overcome us and drive us to give up, lose hope.
Much of our fear comes because we are facing something we cannot control. I have spent much of my life taking pride in the fact that I could control my destiny. I strongly believe in hard work, perseverance, the ability to take life’s punches and get back up. Maybe that is one of the lessons God wants to teach me through this trial. That while those things are important….. we cannot forget that our ability to practice those traits comes from the Father. Our health, our peace, our hope is in him. I cannot heal myself but I know the one who heals. I cannot control this situation but I have put my faith in the one who has me, the one who walks with me and carries me when I can no longer walk.
What do you struggle with? What can you let go and let God do for you today?