As you all know I have 3 sons; Chris – 24, Chase – 22 and Clay – 19. Through the years, they have all done things that would make a parent very proud. From sports accolades to good grades to exhibiting compassion for others, etc. This morning I received an email from Chase with some “thoughts” he wanted to share that had me crying. I was so touched by his words and the maturity with which he spoke. I just had to share!
Author: Chase McCroskey
I am no writer! It is hard sometimes for me to take my thoughts and put them on paper. However, in the weeks leading up the end of 2018 I can’t help but think about the many blessings and answered prayers that I have received. 2018 started off a little rough because I had just came home from giving up a sport that was pretty much my entire life. I had no idea what I wanted to do or how things would turn out. My thoughts were “well I will just start working and making money and it will all just figure itself out”. As the year went on I found myself bouncing around from job to job, switching and working for many different people which quickly got old. This was also during the time I decided that I wanted to live on my own with a roommate and be self sufficient. After a couple months I quickly learned that I should have listened to my parents because I wasn’t quite ready.
As all of this went on it was weighing on me hard. I found myself getting lazy and not getting out and working as hard as I do. I would come home from work and sit in the chair for the rest of the day. I also found myself struggling to get up and go to church on Sundays or read my bible and I feel sometimes that I struggle with staying in the word as really striving to learn more. As summer approached I was sitting by myself at the house I was living in and I just felt like I wasn’t getting anywhere, like I was alone. At that moment I decided to pray and just tell the lord that I was tired of trying to figure out what I do and that I was completely putting it in his hands. I prayed and just said “ okay lord I am lost, I am tired of pushing away whatever your plans are for me. I’m ready to listen”. It was at that moment the lord started doing a work in my life.
This is something that I have felt the Lord urging me to share for weeks so I just asked the lord to speak through me and put these words on paper. The Lord does answer prayers. Sometimes you might have to go through a time of struggle to get to the plans that the lord has, but I’ve learned to keep fighting and not give up. In the last few months of 2018 I was hired as a firefighter for Gantt fire Department. A career where I have met some outstanding men who push me each and every day to be the best I can be. My mother was diagnosed with sarcoma cancer and we prayed that she would have a speedy recovery. A week ago she found out her surgery went well and is now cancer free. He has also brought joy and happiness back into my life by leading me to a woman who is so amazing, encouraging and is always making me smile and laugh.
So I can’t help but reflect on how blessed I am. As this new year begins, my plans are to strive to be the best I can possibly be and not drift away from the lord , but strive to grow closer to him and be the man that my mother and father have raised me to be.
….. I am still crying…